Series 1 - Kate Thornton - Anorexic: My Secret Past

Kate Thornton - Anorexic: My Secret Past

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Presenter and journalist Kate Thornton looks back on the time she suffered from anorexia, a condition that still affects a growing number of teenagers today.

When Kate was 11, she developed anorexia and suffered with it until she was 15. For 25 years, she has been running away from it, but with her 40th birthday just a year away, she has decided it is time she finally came to terms with it.

Kate faces up to some uncomfortable memories from her past, talking to her brother and closest friends to find out what they remember of her lies, her vomiting and her skeletal figure. She is shocked by what she finds out and horrified at the pain she caused her family.

Kate also consults experts to find out the latest information and facts on anorexia. With the emphasis on looking good and even greater peer pressure today, anorexia amongst teens is on the increase, and Kate hopes that her experiences can help other sufferers. Also keen to discover how young people today deal with their eating disorders, she visits homes and clinics and takes a special interest in 18-year-old Megan, a girl just in recovery. Can Kate help Megan over the last hurdles? And what can Megan teach Kate about dealing with anorexia?

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Comments (138)

  • Channel5

    2 years ago

    Channel5

    Hi all, there's an issue affecting this show. It is in the process of being corrected. Please bear with us. Apologies to all eager to see it. Thanks very much.

  • Bex

    almost 2 years ago

    Bex

    Megan seems like such a gorgeous, lovely girl who deserves to go out there and live a happy normal teenage life. Very glad that she is in recovery - perhaps she will live a life of success like Kate Thornton one day and she will bring smiles and warmth to our tv screens!

  • Matt

    2 years ago

    Matt

    I'm a 30 year old male who suffers daily with this problem. I hate the feelings and cannot let them go.

  • Michael

    2 years ago

    Michael

    Brilliant program.....I want to learn more about this as I need to help a friend this is my first step to understanding what an Anorexic is going through... I'd love to see a program that looks at highlighting the problems friends and family go through with Anorexics

  • Katharine

    2 years ago

    Katharine

    Seeing Megan and hearing her story broke my heart. What a beautiful and strong lady. Keep fighting this beast - you're better off without her.

  • sue

    2 years ago

    sue

    Thanks for raising awareness of this vile, cruel illness, there is no shame in having an eating disorder, the shame should lie with the people who are ignorant to it. Nobody wants to be ill, nobody asks to be ill. Perhaps now people will be more sympathic and understanding towards these illnesses.

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  • jender

    2 years ago

    jender

    When will show be available?

  • Alison

    2 years ago

    Alison

    Please replay this programme or work to get it on demand 5. A friend recommended it. My daughter has suffered now for 10 years - first bulimia, but now both bulimia and anorexia. She runs 10 miles a day and is in serious decline. Need any hope we can get. She's just got married, and this is seriously affecting the both of them. They are moving back to be near us again so we can support them - -this programme sounds like it could help.

  • kate

    2 years ago

    kate

    can anyone help me by telling me how I can watch this programme please.

  • kate

    2 years ago

    kate

    when and how can I watch this programme...please

  • kate

    2 years ago

    kate

    when and how can I watch this programme...please

  • nikki

    2 years ago

    nikki

    I have just watched this programme (which I recorded) and was moved to tears when Megan ate her meal with Kate at the restaurant! An inspiring moment! I learnt so much from this programme. Loose Women were mad to let you go Kate!

  • ACH

    2 years ago

    ACH

    I suffered from an eating disorder from the age of 8.5 to 18.5, and it nearly killed me. At my lowest point my nails started dieing and weeping a stinking fluid, my body had digested almost all my muscles and I could barely walk, and the oedema in my feet was so bad that my feet split. The first doctor I saw (I had been abroad) just dismissed it; looking back that could have been a death sentence, as I was very vulnerable to sudden heart attack. Then the re-feeding started, and here again I was lucky to survive as I was forced to eat normal meals, which was cripplingly painfull due to my shrunken stomach. When I was sectioned I saw how little phycological treatment has changed in the last few decades. You are de-humanised bits of meat. Some patients have electro-convulsive therapy. The nurses brag about how they have caught patients breaking the rules-and how they punished them. The doctors say one thing to you, then the opposite to other professionals, and nurses wake you by shining a torch into your eyes. We were also housed alongside drug addicts and alcoholics-as it was a substance mis-use unit, and food is a substance... During the numerous meals patients may rock, cry or even scream at the table-and you are interrogated if you offer any comfort. After meals you are only allowed to talk about the meal for 1/2 an hour and if no one wants to talk you sit in silence and stare at the ceiling (or the rocking crying patients). Some patients were on tranqualizers and were permanent zombies, most had been in and out of the place for years. Some had been to other hospitals where they had been subjected to what was virtually solitary confinement. I had several tribunals to try to get out, but they don't work-as the committee will never disagree with the doctor, even if the nurses admit they should not keep the section on. People need to be more aware by programs like these, and there needs to be much greater awareness.

  • Holly

    2 years ago

    Holly

    When will this video be available again? I'm eager to watch.

  • Dilek

    2 years ago

    Dilek

    Where can i watch this ?

  • missmcd

    2 years ago

    missmcd

    why has this show been removed when it iknitially said we can see it until august?? i am using this as a resource and was half way through my scheme. ;(

  • Zoe

    2 years ago

    Zoe

    Thankyou Kate for bringing this condition into the public awareness. Im a 48 year old and have lived with the effects since I was 16. I was never treated for it and it has tainted my life ever since. Im still struggling on my own but now know that there is support out there. Good luck to Megan she is not only fantastic but beautiful.

  • Zoe

    2 years ago

    Zoe

    Thankyou Kate for bringing this condition into the public awareness. Im a 48 year old and have lived with the effects since I was 16. I was never treated for it and it has tainted my life ever since. Im still struggling on my own but now know that there is support out there. Good luck to Megan she is not only fantastic but beautiful.

  • louise

    2 years ago

    louise

    any ideas on when this show will be able to be watched ?

  • Tony

    2 years ago

    Tony

    Goodness, Linda, that's so powerful. My daughter is 15 and is making a slow recovery having lost weight very quickly. She was an inpatient but the treatment was totally ineffective. Luckily we moved and now get excellent outpatient care and an amazing consultant. It's been hell and I've learnt so much.

  • jen

    2 years ago

    jen

    I am currently in recovery and have suffered with anorexia for 7 years with most of that time spent in and out of hospital. I watched this program and teears were streaming down my face, not because it was bad but because i could relate so much with all those suffering as i watched. At 26 i have so much ahead of me and like kate said at one point in this i just want to be normal.

  • Linda

    2 years ago

    Linda

    My daughter suffered with anorexia for 10 years (the years we knew about as parents), and now after 6 months in an eating disorder unit, and 2 years rehabilitation and inner child workshops on self developing, 10 years on she has now had her first baby. The powers that be say that you don't need to know the core but in my daughter's case she did, and pparently the core of her anorexia was that her daddy didn't say goodbye to her, when he died, when she was 4 years old.

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  • Annie

    2 years ago

    Annie

    This is a great documentary and it is nice that it is told from the point of view of someone who is older. I am 40 and I suffer from both anorexia and bulimia. Because I am maintaining a 'healthy' bmi, there is no help out there for me (that I can afford). Yet there is a war going on in my head all the time, about everything. I lost 30lbs in under 4 months last year and while I did put some back on, I am now just tired and don't believe it is worth the fight so it is coming off again. I am so happy for all these younger girls who have got help. I am also proud of them - they are stronger than I could ever be. But, there are many of us middle-aged anorexics/bulimics who are floundering in the emptiness.

  • Kath

    2 years ago

    Kath

    I watched this programme late last night and was gripped!! It is one of the few programmes on eating disorders that i could say ... That's exactly how I feel... even though it was about anorexia and i have bulimia, i felt every emotion with Kate, It really helped to explain to others what i feel and it has made me realise i shouldnt blame myself... I am now (and i can honestly say its thanks to this praogramme) so motivated not to waste any more of my life... 5 years is plenty enough, I have been offered a treatment programme but wasnt really committed to it... I think Kate was very brave in unlocking her own emotions and the purpose of helping people was achieved ... you helped me .... Thank you xx

  • joel granfield

    2 years ago

    joel granfield

    i think that megan is amazing how she dealt with anorexic she got some much going for her with beautiful looks and great attitude to life thank megan

  • Ruth

    2 years ago

    Ruth

    I think any programme that raises awareness of eating disorders is really valuable. My daughter has suffered with anorexia for 2 years and due to an early diagnosis is hoping to be discharged from the CAMH's team in May. We were lucky that her school were quick to pick up on her problem and listened to my concerns and with their support I was able to go to my GP without my daughter and ask her to be referred. The GP understood enough to know how difficult it would be to get her to come to the doctors surgery and was happy to refer her without seeing her. The school psychologist had already been seeing her for a few months so she wrote a letter requesting her referral to a CAMH's team. My husband didn't believe she had a problem so the school's backing really helped me seek the help she needed. I would urge anybody who is worried to try every avenue including the school student support service or pastoral care, school nurse and GP. An early diagnosis is so important as once sufferers get below a certain weight, it is so hard to change behaviour for the better. I thought Kate and all the people featured in the programme were fantastic. As a parent it is terrifying and also very lonely as it tends to be a condition that is kept secret where possible. I have felt like I have led a secret life that very few of my work colleagues and friends are aware of and I am still shocked by people's narrow minded attitudes about this condition. Perhaps if more people like Kate made programmes like this then attitudes and awareness would change. Many people might not watch a programme that is a more in-depth version but I am sure that Kate being the main subject got many more viewers. They were all very brave and open and I would like to thank all involved.

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  • Marie

    2 years ago

    Marie

    Ive suffered from anorexia for 8 years and have yet to recover, i have so much admiration for those who have and who featured in this documentary. However, unfortuantely i was highly dissappointed. I dont think it even scratched the surface of what it is to have an eating disorder. At a push it raised a little awareness, but i dont feel it really succeeded. If the purpose of this show is really about eating disorders and awareness and not about a celeb making money (sorry kate) then why not show real girls and guys, spend time (not 5 mins) in NHS run E.D units- not private ones that do not represent the norm. Show a variety of accounts from every day people, show how difficult it is to get decent treatment, how lacking treatment is, and show that it affects ALL ages, from 4-60+, male and female. Show accounts from people suffering at all weights, to represent that its not all about weight. There are so many ways to raise awareness, i dont feel that focusing on one famous person, with little memory od that time in her life, and barely involving other sufferers really gets the msg out there.

  • ASH

    2 years ago

    ASH

    An amazing program! Very brave of Kate to allow her past to be opened for the public to see. Megan is looks fabulous, My 18 year old daughter is going through anorexic at the moment, it is a very long and hard process that this program has helped to highlight. We have been extremely fortuate to have loads of medical help for nearly a year but this has not stop the mental and physical slide. I just hope and pray that a quick recovery comes for everyone suffering. This disease affects and impacts on the whole of the family and family friends through their worries as highlighted by the program, the biggest impact seemed to be the mothers which I would agree as my daughter calls me her rock but when you see your beloved daughter as nothing more than a skeleton it is so hard to watch and deal with. Thank you Channel 5.

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  • anon

    2 years ago

    anon

    So interesting. As a Nana who has been a devastated observer of this illness and with grandchildren born prematurely as a consequence, I would like to know what can be done to nip this in the bud when signs are there and before it can get a hold.

  • springwater

    2 years ago

    springwater

    where is the panoramic view restaurant located, and name,where kate and megan were dining out? anybody knows..? thanks:)

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  • Lisa

    2 years ago

    Lisa

    I think that this was a very brave thing for Kate to do andhope that it will have an impact on all those who suffer from anorexia. I havesufferred from anorexia from the age of 14. It started to 'recover' but itwas always there as a default button. At the age of 28 whilst going through an abusive relationship my anorexia returned big time, this time however i had a few professionals who understood that it wasnt all about food and making me put on weight so i'd be 'ok'. 4 years on I'm getting there slowly. I think Megan was amazing showing the courage she did going out for dinner with Kate. I still struggle with those same issues and I know how scary the idea of it can be never mind having to order something and eat it in front of someone. Thank you for such an honest programme.

  • Gee

    2 years ago

    Gee

    the moment my own father broke down and said. how he saw his little girl literally disappearing was when i thought SHIT... did i start eating,. no... you gotta try and break up the routine.. go on holiday, get a hobby... a physical onne preferably (sounds backwards) but if you really enjoy it, yoll strive to be better and afterall that whaat EDs ..are.. to be better?!?! and thus NEEd to eat to imrpove/have energy etc.. i had anorexia, went dwn to a barbaric weight, makes me cringe looking at pictures. ... KATE - welldone.. ive always alikened myself to you, blonde, bubbly..etc and i wanna present too ;) ( i can dream;) ) but finding this out i was like WOAH.. good luck to everyone out therer... try to focus on having babies, healthy hair ( i lost like, allmy hair.. so upsetting ) healthy immune system, bones etc.. and also.. no1 atually thinks skinny is attractive.. its vile, and doesnt represent a person who can bear a child.. for women out there... guys subnsciously go for girls who have a bit about them .. blabbering on.. sorry. good luck people ...

  • charlie

    2 years ago

    charlie

    an inspirational account, giving lots of hope yet facing all difficulties. lets keep the awareness going and please if anyone is suffering get the help. recovery is one step forwards and two steps back. im recovering after five years and now 21, keep fighting xx charlie.

  • Anonymous

    2 years ago

    Anonymous

    Thank you Kate, this programme was really interesting and I feel this is something that really needs more awareness. I currently have anorexia and supposed to be in recovery. I feel so guilty for inflicting this on my family and was sure I caused this myself so that bit at the end was very interesting. And well done and the best of luck to Megan and the others. Megan, you're absolutely stunning and I hope you see this!

  • Lisa

    2 years ago

    Lisa

    I found it so emotional watching this program. Being an eating disorder sufferer for more than 13 years myself I feel so strongly that there is no way near enough help out there for people like us. I suffer from bulimia and so far have not received the help I need for me to truely say I am in recovery, considering I sought help 3 years after the onset of my illness I think it is awful. I have been passed from pillar to post and can honestly say I have never been made to feel like I mattered and I deserved to get better. I cry writing this as I feel so failed that It doesn't seem that there is anyone out there who cares enough to help. Kate I think you were so brave to make this program to help others and you are an amazing woman to have come out of your illness the other side. You managed to make it in such a way that will make people see that it really is an illness and that it should be treated as such and not shied away from or shunned. It would be nice once in a while for programs about eating disorders to not only centre on anorexia as others are just as awful to deal with and seeing how others deal with and relate to the same things I go throughwould be so helpful. Well done to everyone involved with this program you are all an inspiration xx

  • Rachel

    2 years ago

    Rachel

    Well done to Kate and all those featured on this programme. I had anorexia as a teenager but made a fast physical recovery thanks to the support of great friends and family, and also my determination to to get better. I was surprised by my reaction when I watched the programme as I cried all the way through.......made me realise that I too had locked away this horrible experience. It never really leaves you emotionally but I just know that I would never want to go back there. Still need to say to say sorry to my parents and I am 37! Good luck to all those going through this now.....Stay strong!xx

  • Lilly

    2 years ago

    Lilly

    Amazing programme. Other documentaries about this issue often make it seem like an alien world, detached from our own, even glamorous. This has shown that it is real, it is around us and normal, wonderful people can be sufferers and they can recover. The problem with the lack of publicity on the subject is that I felt completely isolated and it wasn't until I was at a dangerous BMI that I was taken seriously. I had been suffering since a BMI of 25.

  • J

    2 years ago

    J

    thanks so much for this - particularly the part at the end about the brain imaging. I had anorexia at 14, was put on anti-depressants (am still on them at 47!!!) and had no help at all. Although I am 'well', for me, the thought processes have never gone away, only lessened, and they always worsen in times of stress. It really does feel like a life sentence. On the other hand i am proud of the fight I have put up and the work I have done by myself.

  • lauren

    2 years ago

    lauren

    thanks for putting this on tv! Absolutely brilliant!

  • Steph Stinton

    2 years ago

    Steph Stinton

    Kate; i hope with all my heart you read these comments and see what an amazing person and thing you have done... I have Anorexia, since the age of 15 and i am now 21 this year. i cryed the whole way through this, and seeing you going and asking the questions that so many people are scared to do to the Beat group is amazing . that charity are amazing the last few minutes when you went for the brain scan and you said 'so its not my fault' ... and he agreed ... i phoned my mum and cryed down the phone , that is what i am always scared of, its currently 2am nearly however i had the best convosation with my mum . thank you - for everything youhave done with this programme. i hope one day i can meet you just to personally thank you . PS - Megan - you are amazing ! and so beautiful it is unreal - god bless x

  • S

    2 years ago

    S

    Kate - there is a moment several times where you question why you did this. Having watched the programme twice and read the comments and being a mum of someone who is 16 and has anorexia nervosa and has been in and out of a unit for 2 years... I think this is the best programme I have seen. It shows the pain in the person and the family. I felt your pain, our pain and my pain. My daughter has an exercise addiction alongside her eating problems. It is hard. Kate - take a deep breath and do more. Channel 5 at 10pm is not good enough. We need to talk more about this awful illness. Thank you.

  • Angie

    2 years ago

    Angie

    I have a parnter who is anorexic and has been receiving treatment in a clinic for the past 3years and I have been unable to see her its has been so hard just getting through a day is an achievement for us both, Thank you Kate for highlighting the struggle so many people go through when fighting to beat this condition x Megan you are an amazing young lady and I wish you well for the future x this programme has given me hope that that my Deb will pull through this x Thank You x

  • katy

    over 2 years ago

    katy

    brilliant show but i have a bit of a quarm about your description of it; anorexia or indeed any eating disorder is not caused or brought on by wanting to look good. If it was then girls would stop losing weight when they were a size 8 or whatever not dying and skelital. Its a common myth that people with an eating disorder have a problem because they want to lose weight, the real reason for many is that there is some aspect of their life they cant cope with (conciuosly or subconsiously) and having an eating disorder is their only way to survive. Studies have shown that nearly 80% of people diagnosed with an eating disorder have been involved in some sort of abuse, myself included and it does upset me that people think I've done this too myself just because I want to look good. Nothing could be further than the trueth............

  • R

    over 2 years ago

    R

    Eye opening story:- loved this show. I suffered from anorexia 2 years ago, and could relate to most things Kate felt. I also wish everybody featured on the show all the best with their recovery, especially Megan who is a beautiful young girl who will have a fantastic life in front of her - I'm sure! Xxx

  • jo

    over 2 years ago

    jo

    following my last message please donot underestimate the impact that over exercising also has on an eating disorder. My daughter will eat a meal and then feels the guilt and will exercise. She got down to 5 stone and is 5 foot 8. She was only admitted when she was at a BMI of 12. Why do professionals only look at tangable numbers. She was said to be ok because she had a positive attitude, but no its a longer climb.

  • jacky

    over 2 years ago

    jacky

    i suffered like Kate my periods stopped for a year, and i was excercising like mad i managed to get under 7 stone and was so happy the less i ate the better and happier i felt sadly i never got help my tuk me to the doctors and i got given tablets and that was it 20 yrs on im starting to go back there again iv lost 3 stone in 4 months and feel like i want to go back to being thin again

  • Julez

    over 2 years ago

    Julez

    Amazing programme, you have to be at a certain stage in recovery to watch it and not turn it negative. I would love to speak to Kate about my experience as well as my amazing other half x

  • solene

    over 2 years ago

    solene

    I'm 19 and have suffered with anorexia nervosa for around 9 months now. My parents told me to watch this program and can honestly say i related to so much of it. I have also recently started writing a blog on my experience and i wish to share it with anyone interested. http://solendahand.blogspot.com/2012/01/normal-0-false-false-false-en-gb-x-none.html

  • Bekah

    over 2 years ago

    Bekah

    Message to Kate, I just wanted to say a massive thankyou to you for your piece to camera at the end of the programme it's always been hard for me not to blame myself for having an eating disorder since the age of 11 and I'm now 33 and my Mum still says she is upset that I couldn't tell her as I kept it a secret until I told an aunt 3yrs ago! But your programme has made me realise it's not my fault. Thanks so much

  • Bekah

    over 2 years ago

    Bekah

    Message to Kate, I just wanted to say a massive thankyou to you for your piece to camera at the end of the programme it's always been hard for me not to blame myself for having an eating disorder since the age of 11 and I'm now 33 and my Mum still says she is upset that I couldn't tell her as I kept it a secret until I told an aunt 3yrs ago! But your programme has made me realise it's not my fault. Thanks so much

  • melissa

    over 2 years ago

    melissa

    this was an inspiring program i suffered with anorexia for 5 years from the age of 13 and am still fighting with it now its not something that just goes away nor do we chose to get it hopefully this will help people understand and not criticizes.

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  • elle

    over 2 years ago

    elle

    such an inspirational show, had recently 'recovered' but now experiencing a relapse but i honestly think this will have at least delayed it for some time - the ending was just too much, realising that it is a waste of time - constantly thinking about food, weight, how many calories when there is a life out there to be lived, thank-you for doing this and to all the brave people who also took part x

  • jo

    over 2 years ago

    jo

    My 18yr old daughter is presently in a clinic for eating disorders. I agree with everything that was presented in the programme. I fully understand the blame that a parent feels and the guilt my daughter feels for affecting us. But mostly as a nurse I am horrified at the lack of GP support and training. I recognised my daughters condition one year prior to her being admitted. Her GP did not. I had seek help for her using the internet.

  • Vanessa

    over 2 years ago

    Vanessa

    I thought this documentary was a really brave thing to do for everyone that was invovled in it. Especially those that are suffering and working hard to beat this disorder. I have Anorexia and I could really relate to the transistional period that meghan was talking about, about being in the place between realising how bad things are and then finding the want and strength to recover. Physically I'm stronger than I was but mentally I can't let go. What it did open my eyes to though was that even though my family try and behave like its ok, that I'm hurting everyone around me. It was a private battle for me, but now I realise it isn't just about me. Thankyou.

  • kathryn

    over 2 years ago

    kathryn

    Well done Kate, this was a fantastic doctumentry that hit home big time in my daughters life. She has been suffering with an eating disorder for almost 2 years. She is fifteen now and is in recovery with the help and support of an E.D team, who have been fantastic, not only for my daughter but for myself and husband and 2 other younger children in the family. It has been a very difficult and worrying time especially for me as a mother. It takes over your life completley and seems to put the other children in the family on hold not purposely but I know my other kids feel it. This programme highlighted on quite alot and my daughter and i watched this together and found it very emotional, though we had great identification with it all. My biggest relief was when the consultant said that it is triggered off by INSULAR in the brain, and that it is nobodies fault, i have been blaming myself for this even though i have been told by my G.P and the eating disorder team that it is not my fault. I have carried this around with me probably because a member of my family accused me of it. My child has developed osteopenia as a result of this E.D . She has had no periods in almost 2 years,her sleeping is terrible and she always feels cold. She is on medication for her sleeping MELATONIN and calcium tablets. The melatonin worked at the beginning but they seem to have no effect now. I have to congratulate you on this wonderful documentry and wish you and Megan and all who participated in it the best of health and happiness for the future.

  • Alexandra blackwood

    over 2 years ago

    Alexandra blackwood

    As the mother of ananorexic girl, who has suffered since age of 13 and is now 29. I can only praise your programme. My daughter had 2 admissions to priory hospital & i cant praise them enough, without them i would not have my beautiful daughter today.Thank you to the doctor who said it was a gene she was born with.For years my husband & i thought it was us to blame, altho i have never had any weight problems and never spoke of dieting i couldnt understand. Megan was so like my daughter when out to lunch.She is now in recovery &her head is in a much better place.Thank you Kate for highlighting this awful illness.

  • Katie

    over 2 years ago

    Katie

    Megan is amazing. This whole documentary is, I can't say how thankful I am that it isn't like so many others which are all about the numbers. I'd love to see more documentaries like this. I've had EDNOS/bulimia for about 5 years now (currently EDNOS, close to AN/p subtype without the low weight and amenorrhoea) and I would kill to see awareness about the condition. Just one programme on EDNOS, I think I'd die from happiness. I know how hard it is for people with AN/BN to get help, but when you're a "normal" BMI it's even harder :(. I really hope Megan and her friends manage to change things, they're such wonderful people (as are all B-eat ambassadors)

  • Alice

    over 2 years ago

    Alice

    This is a really inspiring programme. I have a couple of friends who have gone through annorexia and are still battling with it now. I have never fully understood what drove them to become ill and watching this has helped me realise that there are many factors not necessarily because of weight. It annoys me that so many people over look annorexia as an illness and i really hope this programme changes the attitues of people! Megan and everyone else who featured on this is amazing for what they have gone through. Such role models! They prove that anything is possible! I wish them all the best for the future and i hope they feel proud of what they have done with this programme and who they are!

  • anon

    over 2 years ago

    anon

    Megan is so beautiful, shes honestly stunning <3 Such a powerful girl and clearly from this program is a role model for girls of my age. Really hopes she reads this x

  • James

    over 2 years ago

    James

    Thank you so much. One of my closest friends suffers from an ED. As much as I've wanted to, I guess I've just never quite got it. But this program made me understand. It's made me realise that she's far stronger than I ever realised. I just hope I can be there for her better now. Thank you. x

  • Clara

    over 2 years ago

    Clara

    Thank you because I always thought that it was my fault to suffer eating disorders, and last night this programme made me realise that it wasn't my fault nor my parent's. I really wish that you all suffering from eating disorders recover soon, I am still fighting against it but I am sure I will win this battle sometime soon :) thank you!

  • Nicole perkins

    over 2 years ago

    Nicole perkins

    Katie i would just like to say thankyou so much for this, i have anorexia/bulimia and watching this made me cry as i can relate to it and im so glad you dont it as it show awareness to people who dont have it or no's someone who might have it <3

  • A

    over 2 years ago

    A

    As a mother of an anorexic and a recovered anorexic I found this documentary very helpful. It goes some way to explain why both my daughters have suffered with this hideous illness. I had lost all confidence as a mum and felt that I must be at least partly to blame. I now feel absolved of the guilt I have been burdened with. I have felt very isolated as a parent of an anorexic and feel there's a real stigma attached to this illness. I think that your documentary will help people understand this condition and you have raised awareness in a positive way. Thank you to everyone involved and good luck to all the sufferers out there x

  • Charlotte

    over 2 years ago

    Charlotte

    I think everyone in this programme is amazing!! I have finally managed to get a referal from my doctor to a specialist but it has taken years because I am within the healthy bmi range. I too was given anti-depressents which I didn't take because I knew I wasn't depressed. I can't remember a time when I haven't been consumed by anxiety over food and exercise. Fingers crossed everything will begin to get better now. Thank you so much xxxx

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  • Anna

    over 2 years ago

    Anna

    there is help out there, you just need to take it. we as parents go through all the emotions with them. my daughter from day one told me everything and i went through every bit of pain she did. she suffered and so did i. there is and there are so many people who want to help, but you need to trust them....since my girl died three years ago this coming February ive educated myself on the WHY's and how's...ive asked questions and tried to find answers as to why so many girls go through this all, a Doctor once told me that anything can trigger this in the brain..... there is also so much negativity out there... lets fight that...be brave....be strong....dont be affraid ....your not alone...i have spoken to many parents especially mums...some although are in denial about the illness, and dont really understand it....but when you see your child helpless in a hospital bed then it hits you...but sadly its too late.......start now only you can turn it around xxxx

  • Anna

    over 2 years ago

    Anna

    You can get help, you need to have the will power to want it so bad.. MY BEAUTIFUL GIRL Lorry couldnt accept change, but she tried her best, and did well, you have to also remember that there is so much negativity out there, the vunerable are easily influenzed...from day one that Lorry was diagnosed as having Anorexia i never as her mum left her side we fought it togeter, even whilst she was in the clinics and trying her best, i was trying my best on the outside to come to terms with all of this, to educate myself more to try and understand the WHY...in all this.. as a mum i suffered with her, andf now even more so coz it will be three years next month that she died...there is help...dont refuse it..dont suffeer in silence....also thereapy does work....be strong... be brave and dont give up...x

  • Bex

    over 2 years ago

    Bex

    All who are asking for where to go for help next - great starting point in Beat (eating disorders association) - an amazing charity. They have lots of information and options for advice and support. Good luck. And to the parents - same goes - I'd say get in touch with them and they probably can give you advice or at least starting point for how to find out about local support groups etc too. There's lots out there, finding it can sometimes be the challenge- beat are very helpful. Check out their website xxx

  • Janet

    over 2 years ago

    Janet

    This was such a fantastic programme in that It covered so much ground in so little time and with such sensitivity. I am 55 now, slim, healthy and reasonably confident, but as someone who bordered on anorexia in her teens and was bulimic throughout her twenties Kate finally addressed the issue of blame for me. I had never considered before that some people are more genetically inclined to these behaviour patterns then others, I could never understand how I allowed these eating disorders to take hold so easily - perhaps this will help me come to a greater understanding. Thank you

  • laura

    over 2 years ago

    laura

    thankyou for doing such a great program and highlighting the true effects of anorexia and what its really like. anorexia isnt just about weight its a mental illness weight is just one of the side effects ive suffered for 13 years and im getting better it hard people and doctors dont understand telling me to go and eat chips every night isnt going to help. more needs to be said and done about this illness so thankyou for showing this and megan BIG well done for what you did you :) xxx

  • Kat

    over 2 years ago

    Kat

    Congratulations Channel 5, for doing what magazines and other channels have failed to do for so long. Giving the eating disorders the correct coverage, and not dwelling on weights and calories. Megan you're an absolute star, keep fighting! Kate please take me out to dinner so I can conquer my carb and fat phobia. x

  • louise marshall

    over 2 years ago

    louise marshall

    I agree Charlotte the two Anorexia and Bulimia do cross over into each other ..in the worst stages of my daughters illness she was purging as the therapists called it ...even iff it was a small amount of food so it wasnt the binge factor as in Bulimia ...but i can see how people confuse the two illness,s .

  • Charlotte Bevan

    over 2 years ago

    Charlotte Bevan

    For those of you who are questioning anorexia or bulimia, two points. Anorexia and bulimia do cross over into each other. However, purging anorexia (as opposed to restricting anorexia) is different from bulimia because of the "binge" factor ie. anorexics purge what they eat, however little, whereas bulimics binge first and then purge. I hope this answers that question.

  • Charlotte Bevan

    over 2 years ago

    Charlotte Bevan

    What a heartening programme. Megan - wow, you are a knock out. Having a daughter who is now recovered, I understand how difficult it is for everyone involved, the patient, siblings, parents and other carers. For support, information and peer to peer advice I found the Around the Dinner Table on line forum invaluable. I believe that Men Get Eating Disorders Too are doing a lot of campaigning at the moment and a visit to their website or FB page to help people like Jamie takes 5 minutes but could save lives. I am a member of F.E.A.S.T. and Expert Carer on the Echo Programme (Maudsley Hospital) and a parent advocate. More importantly I am the mother of one of the bravest people I know. Bryan Lask's book - Eating Disorders and the Brain is a good book. Kate Thornton, Megan, Jamie and all who participated in this programme - thank you for dispelling so many myths and misconceptions. To Kate's mum - I know how you feel. Please accept love and a hug.

  • louisem

    over 2 years ago

    louisem

    Just to add to my comments above id like to say Megan your amazing an inspiration to all and a stunning young girl ...i wish you all the best for the future an thankyou for helping raise awareness of this illness.Kate i think you did an amazing job i got very emotional watching with my daughter who is a sufferer starting out in the recovery stages ..and well done to channel 5 :)

  • S

    over 2 years ago

    S

    As much as I commend everyone involved in this documentary (I know most of the girls and they are wonderful people), I found this difficult to watch (in a bad way). As someone who has suffered from Anorexia for 5 years (I am now well into to recovery) all I want to do is move on with my life (as Kate wants to do). Documentaries like this make moving on very hard indeed and I think that perhaps people need to think a little bit before showing them. Eating Disorders seem to be a fashionable thing to show on TV and the fact is they are not fashionable!! Like Kate, I want to move on - I just hope 2012 is not bogged down with loads of similar documentaries!!

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  • dn

    over 2 years ago

    dn

    Amazing documentary, well done Kate fab job :-) after 14 years of my own e.d's, and still living everyday as a 'prisoner in my own body', it is gr8 to see someone that has been through the same experiences- rather than some of these 'celebs' on tv just saying the correct things to get a bit of publicity. Amazing, i have a new found respect for Kate and I would love to met her.

  • quis

    over 2 years ago

    quis

    i had self harm and anorexic at the same time, which to me was the way i could control my life without any one else doing so. i dont self harm any more drag myself throw that, but i stop eating for weeks when am unhappy all the time,i dont want to be a size 12 any more but i dont want to go back to only been 4 stone at 21, am 29 now and at 11 stone, whichs is fine by me, because its just mussle, i decided to work out on weights! but do alot of walking with my dog

  • grumpy67

    over 2 years ago

    grumpy67

    Well done Kate. Brilliant. As always you deliver the goods when it comes to presenting. A true professional. I hope this raises awareness. Well done too to the beautiful Megan. You were amazing & I wish you all the best for the future.

  • charlotte

    over 2 years ago

    charlotte

    i suffered from anorexia from the age of eleven and it took a lot of my adolescence away and this illness made me behind in development. I felt beyond help and like megan, i wished i was dead. I could not see a way out. This illness takes control of you in every way. All I thought about was food and exercise. You are totally consumed by it. This programme is brilliant and i admire kate doing it as it has brought up many issues which need addressing. When I first went to a doctor, i got told to eat a giant cheese sandwich!! This illness needs to be taken seriously and dealt with as soon as possible.People need to understand its not based on wanting attention or to want to be thin like celebrities or to be a size zero, its something in your mind that never lets you rest. It took a long time to get better, even now, at the age of twenty two i have tough days but now i am much better. I realised life is worth living. I go to university, work, go to the gym and i socialise with friends and even go out for meals. If i was still really ill none of this would be possible, the anorexia would still be putting my life on hold. For those suffering you can find the strength to beat this and live life to the fullest. The should also be more support for parents... my dad went through hell.

  • ashleigh

    over 2 years ago

    ashleigh

    i have been bulimic for nearly 2 years .... i get no help for it and the amount of damage i must course myself . theres no one to talk to about it

  • shmeep

    over 2 years ago

    shmeep

    very inspirational program - almost made me cry! still trying to recover from an 11 year fling with anorexia. its nice to see that it can be beaten completely, and that you can have a normal happy life afterwards! thank you x

  • leanne dinnigan

    over 2 years ago

    leanne dinnigan

    Just watched your programe kate I have cried all the way through im 27 an sufferd with anorexia an bulima since I was 13 im lucky that inbetween I somehow got pregnant and now have a healthy son this illness is evil I try everyday t b normal 4 my son but it just takes over. When kate mentioned about her parents it was like wot I feel 4 mine I have put them thru so much and hopefuly one day soon beable t make them an my son proud thankyou kate for making me see that maybe there is stil light at the end of the tunnel 4 me and if I own up t my family and admit I have a problem then I mite find the rite help I need.

  • A

    over 2 years ago

    A

    Kate, thank you so much for sharing you're story in such an honest and beautiful way. Megan, you are so beautiful and strong! keep up your amazing work! I can relate to you both so much! My story is not the same as yours, I know that no two "anorexics" are alike, but I too was diagnosed with the illness three years ago. I nearly destroyed myself and my family and very nearly lost my place in medical school. I would never wish this disease on anyone, and every night I prey that no one else has to go through a similar thing to what I went through. I don't think that I will ever lose the guilt surrounding the impact my disease had on my family, but feel that I am finally in a place where I think I can put it behind me and get on with my life. Thank you again Kate, you truly are an inspiration to everyone who is currently suffering or has suffered from an eating disorder.

  • Sarah

    over 2 years ago

    Sarah

    Ps.. Megan u should be so proud of yourself.. And each day you will get stronger there isn't a better feeling than knowing you've over come it.. Keep going and ul travel the world..

  • Sarah

    over 2 years ago

    Sarah

    Thankyou... This programme meant more to me than alot of things... Bought a lot of realation home! Made the last 6 years of my life make sense.. Very Greatful someone had finally stated the facts of annotexia and the lonely emotional hard times that comes with it! Just shows more awareness needs to be made and more support needs to be hand... I only had my mum and without her I wouldn't be where I am today but maybe the stress wouldn't have been takn off her more if I had the support that I needed! Thankyou for this fantastic honest programme I'm now inspired to have a fund raising event raise money for beat! Thankyou again... X

  • dad

    over 2 years ago

    dad

    Being a dad with a 13 year old daughter i thought this program had everything which a good program needs, excellent .The only negative its a pity it wasn't on a little earlier, and all praise to Megan what a beautiful, strong young lady.

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  • Susie

    over 2 years ago

    Susie

    Fantastic documentary. Although I don't have any experience of this terrible disease ths absolutely raised my awareness.

  • Cath

    over 2 years ago

    Cath

    Fantastic to see the plight of anorexia sufferers and their families shown in such an informative, sensitive and non sensationalist way. Megan.you go girl..I was so proud of you! My daughter is 17 and has suffered since 14 from anorexia. Very refreshing for myself, husband and son to watch this and gain just a wee bit more of an understanding.

  • Caroline

    over 2 years ago

    Caroline

    Thank you Kate..... and thank you Megan..... My nineteen year old daughter has had anorexia for over two years now. She has attended a day clinic for a couple of months, but doesn't want to get better. She is an amazingly bright, bubbly girl with the opportunity of university ahead this September. It is so frustrating to watch this illness consume my daughter. It seems I have to wait until she is ready for help or until her BMI is critical. I think it was a very important point to make in the programme. It seems amazing to learn that there is in fact a physical defect in the brain (the insular) that can help to trigger anorexia - I wish our clinic had advised us of such a possibility. Again thank you......

  • Sinead

    over 2 years ago

    Sinead

    Enjoyed the programme, would love to see it again, my daughter has bulimia and swings sometimes too anorexia, she is still in denial and it's so hard when you can't help, she came into the room while I was watching it and watched a little bit here hoping a light bulb went off for her, great progamme awareness for families very important also well done to all who took part in this programme

  • Emma

    over 2 years ago

    Emma

    Thank u so so so much Kate! Ur show was amazing and very very moving! I am 20 years old and am currently in recovery.Have not long left inpatient treatment and determined to keep fighting my illness to get to the point where u r now. U r truly inspirational. After watching ur programme tonight has helped me so much. It has not only enabled me to see how far I have come (something that I have been struggling with so much recently) but also u have shown me that the fight is so worth it! It is possible to come through it and live life normally! I honestly cannot thank u enough! X

  • SarahO

    over 2 years ago

    SarahO

    I would love to commend Megan on being so wonderful and strong!! You are stunningly beautiful and unbelievably strong. You are an inspiration to people who are suffering and need some hope. Massive congratulations to you

  • N. L.

    over 2 years ago

    N. L.

    Anorexia or Bulimia?

  • jean

    over 2 years ago

    jean

    My daughter had anorexia at age of 13. She is now 30 and completely recovered. All this time I have felt guilty that I didn't stop her illness from developing despite the fact that her dad had died 2 years before and this has always been thought to be the reason. I'm glad I watched as it has reassured me that it wasn't my fault. So thank you and best wishes to all of you that took part in the programme.

  • Kim

    over 2 years ago

    Kim

    Thank you Kate and channel 5! Thank you so much for doing this programme it made things so much clearer even though I have been recovered for two years there's still lasting effects. I struggle getting my head around why and how i did it and what I put my parents through but this has helped me greatly aswell as having to face some bad memories and emotions. I wish everyone featured on the programme All the best and would like to no how to get involved in the charity Beat

  • MB

    over 2 years ago

    MB

    I agree it was a beautifully made and very emotional programme. I wish Kate and everyone in the documentary all the best for full lives in recovery. As was discussed it is important for everyone to get good access to treatment early on and I am sure that Kate will be relieved to know that there is now an excellent NHS eating disorders team based just 5 minutes walk from her own primary school

  • Marie

    over 2 years ago

    Marie

    Well done Kate Thornton for a real account of what it's like to cope with anorexia. My mum has suffered with eating disorders since she was13 years old and I grew up not really appreciating what she was going through and how it felt for her. I have read so much about eating disorders but never really understood from the sufferers perspective in the way I do having watched the program this evening. Wow. Feeling very emotional right now and so much in awe of my beautiful mum, who has coped so amazingly and continues to do so despite all the challenges she still faces. Love you mum x

  • June

    over 2 years ago

    June

    As a mother of a 21 year old who is hopefully beginning to recover I found this programme very difficult to watch but a very accurate portyral of this horrible horrible illnes. As a parent I am getting support from a BEAT carers group and would suggest this to other parents. We don't unfortunately have any magic answers but it helps to be woth people who understand.

  • Teresa Lang

    over 2 years ago

    Teresa Lang

    What a brilliant programme. Hopefully it will give hope to sufferers. Thank you to everyone who took part. Good luck to all of you. Megan...you go girl! Enjoy Oz! :) My heart goes out to you Anna x x

  • caroline

    over 2 years ago

    caroline

    Kate THANK YOU! for years i have suffered and have always wanted to know why, and what i did etc. Watching your programme has made me see a lot of things about my life and what i put myself and people through. Well done for opeing up and letting us in, your a brave women!

  • Naomi L.

    over 2 years ago

    Naomi L.

    Although this is an exceptionally well publicised piece, she seems to be lacking the time in the film to draw attention to the difference between Anoerexia Nervosa and Bulimia Nervosa. She refers to herself as being sick regularly at school whereas Anorexia is a restrictive obsession, a counting of calories and watching the scales. Bulimia is the forceful nature of hands down a throat, the acceptance of eating but the denial after. Although it is 'a waste of time' it is time consuming and i will go so far to say life consuming. Many of my friends have gone this way. But the protection of a hospital and the safety they give. Yes they make you eat 6 meals a day but you can and will avoide it. You can count and excercise when you're supposed to sleep and throw up in cans and in the bin and weigh down your clothes to make you heavier and drink so much water you gain 3lbs. Please stop other girls from going down this horrific route. But please don't assume that it all comes down to one disorder.

  • Anna

    over 2 years ago

    Anna

    Hi Iost my daughter to anorexia three years in February She was 20 beautiful ... I'm lost without her.. I want to share her story with everyone ... It's a life of laughter and sadness she was my girl and best friend.....:( I would love to visit and give talks but where do I start.. This is a world wide issue that needs to be addressed And not swept under the carpet... Plz help Me make this awareness reality x. Since she left me Two of her friends passed away too :(

  • Tracey

    over 2 years ago

    Tracey

    This is an incredible programme. Its one of the few programs on eds that is quite accurate, it tells the truth, the reality of suffering with an ed, the battles we face to recover and the obstacles health service often present for many. Megan, Sophie, Jamie, Becky and Alice are incredibly brave, inspiring and an absolute credit to beat and to speaking the truth for us all. Kate Thornton too was very brave - it took a lot to go back to that place and to face those demons - but Kate dont put it 'back in the loft' let it go. Thank you for telling the truth. xxx

  • neil

    over 2 years ago

    neil

    well done Kate. Just watchin now. I'm just a normal 37yr old father. Never had issues relation to this but i have 2 kids in bed upstairs and i couldn't imagine seeing them do this to themselves. Wasting their lives (albeit out of their control in some respect). You've had a few knock backs over your career but you should be very proud. God bless & best wishes to the brave who helped with the programme x

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  • Bex

    over 2 years ago

    Bex

    Also TOTALLY agree what these fantastic young people are saying about need for early intervention! Xx

  • Marie

    over 2 years ago

    Marie

    excellent program,giving a true account of this illness, very brave Kate Thorton & how beautiful is Megan. x

  • Bex

    over 2 years ago

    Bex

    Kate Thornton - you are a brave and beautiful person inside and out. Thankyou so much for sharing your story. Megan and others I'm sure who will be on - so brave and fantastic. I struggled myself, and have overcome this enough to now be able to use my experience to help others. so many people struggle with eating difficulties. I want you all to know you can overcome it. Keep fighting :-)

  • Jackie

    over 2 years ago

    Jackie

    Megan you are a beauiful person x

  • Lisa Adams-May

    over 2 years ago

    Lisa Adams-May

    I wouldn't wish an eating disorder on my worst enemy, it can wreck families' hearts watching someone fade away. Two and a half years on from my diagnosis, and I'm right at the end of recovery. There really is a final hurdle keeping you in, and I'm facing up to it now. You can beat this. You definitely can.

  • Sarah

    over 2 years ago

    Sarah

    So glad to see a documentary about anorexia from someone who has lived it as opposed to doctors laying out statistics and TELLING us how hard it is. Such a viscious illness and even when the physical side of you is recovered, the mental battle is a long, tedious and draining one. I'm still fighting the mental side of things, maybe this documentary will give me a push in the right direction.

  • Kate

    over 2 years ago

    Kate

    Increased awareness i exactly what needs to happen, there are too many pre-judgements around the illness

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  • Rachel

    over 2 years ago

    Rachel

    Just watched the interview with Kate and Megan on this morning and am looking forward to watching this. I felt myself slipping into an eating disorder back when I was 20 and fortunately somehow dragged myself out of it. My boyfriend's cousin, however, was not that lucky, and unfortunately after years of suffering, lost her battle with anorexia last year. She was only 38 years old and left two young children behind. Hopefully this show will help to bring a little more awareness to the illness.

  • Sarah

    over 2 years ago

    Sarah

    I can't wait to sit my boyfriend down to watch this I have suffered for 10 years recovering at the moment, I feel like no one understands and making him watch this hopefully will help him understand the difficulty I am going threw and maybe give me praise through this very hard time.

  • rof

    over 2 years ago

    rof

    This should be an interesting watch for me as I'm currently in recovery. The more awareness made about the matter, the better.

  • julie buck

    over 2 years ago

    julie buck

    When I was 17 I went from a size 18 to a size 6 in just over a year.I was a big girl and often got teased about my weight..My periods stopped for 7 years,and I was told it would be very difficult for me to have children..I am now 37 and I'm a healthy Size 12 but I suffer with panic attacks an ive been unable to have children.I just hope girls and boys will watch this program and really think about what they are doing and don't leave it to late,like I did.I went through this on my own until I decided to go and see a doctor.And to this day my parents still don't no what I went though.My advice is to get help straight away because It dose affect you later in life.I Know.

  • Amelia

    over 2 years ago

    Amelia

    I had anorexia for 10 years and have just found out at 26 that it's affected my fertility. I'm hoping this programme shows life after recovery. It seems that even when people recover physically, it takes a long time psychologically and emotionally, even when everyone else thinks you are out of the woods, to fully recover. My family will never know my journey and still don't know why I can't conceive. I wish everyone recovery. My message to you is to get help before it's too late.

  • alrac

    over 2 years ago

    alrac

    should be good to; raise awareness so people can spot the signs earlier, to help get rid of the stigma around mental illness and help people realise it is a common illness even though its deperatly hard to get good help on the NHS (I've been ill for 10 years and continue to try and fight for the right to one day get some help)

  • Mini

    over 2 years ago

    Mini

    Looking forward to seeing this programme.. I'm 18 and hav been secretly bullimic for 8 months following my 'recovery' from anorexia. It's great that she's putting this in the spotlight and raising awareness.. this should happen more with celebrities suffering from other mental illnesses to show people that they're not as uncommon as you first think!

  • laura

    over 2 years ago

    laura

    cant wait to see this show i have suffered for 13 years and more need to be done and said about it as people are becoming younger and younger nice to see people raising awerness

  • Sam Thomas

    over 2 years ago

    Sam Thomas

    For any male sufferers of eating disorders (or anyone concerned/caring for someone who is male) please visit the Men Get Eating Disorders Too website. The site contains information that is specific to men, personal stories and forum/live peer for peer support. Maybe C5 could add the site as a related link? www.mengetedstoo.co.uk

  • Megan Rafferty

    over 2 years ago

    Megan Rafferty

    This was the most amazing experience of my life. Kate was wonderful and the crew were out of this world. Such an emotional journey.

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  • jamie read

    over 2 years ago

    jamie read

    i had the great pleasure of being featured within this program and am so glad kate has enabled a program like this to be made. im also extremely proud of my amazing friend megan! love u megan!

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